She Idealist

Idealism over Realism… yes please!!

Don’t be that guy / girl!

I am in sad thought with the amount of people that do things to hurt others. And I am not even necessarily referring to the recent killings. However those are appalling! I am referring to those in our everyday lives. People who stalk your pages just to see what they can use against you. People that falsely call themselves your friends yet do wrong against you behind your back. People who find pleasure spreading gossip of partial truth or twisted storied filled with lies about others. People that spend so much of their days obsessed with and fueled by hate and stirring up strife on purpose. I don’t even get it. It is so beyond my comprehension how someone can live this kind of life. Why can you not seek peace? Why is it so hard to just be a good person in your daily actions instead of just falsely a good person. Or just selectively a good person only to those you “feel” deserve it?? Are you God?! Are you able to decide who deserves respect or love or kindness??? 

Life is hard enough on its own. People who intentionally make others’ lives harder are the worst. I do my best to NEVER return evil for evil or speak badly against those who speak badly against me. I am guilty of being human as are all of you; of losing my cool collected composure after someone continuously does wrong to me and I do finally stand my ground against them for my own respect and to be treated decently. And I’ve not always done so with the best politeness or kindness. At times, I have even raised my voice. Even yelled when provoked beyond my tipping point. But to do these things once in a while if provoked is not horrible. It’s human. Being able to communicate respectfully as much as possible is mature. And we can all always be improving in this area. However….to sin against someone just because they do to you is not okay. Bad actions are never justifiable. Ever. It is not okay to be bad to someone in the first place. Do not provoke others to anger. Do not do wrongs to someone else. And again, it is not okay to return bad to someone who was bad to you either. 

I pray we all learn to have more love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, and self-control! Imagine how much better the world would be!!! God bless us all and help make each of us like this. 

No one is perfect. And everyone makes mistakes. A mistake is something that occurs only from time to time and the person picks them self back up and goes back to a good proper course. And I am not referring to someone who is simply human and gives into their negative thoughts or emotions momentarily in their lives. 

What I am referring to are those people who make repeated daily actions, which are NOT a mistake. Those are a conscious deliberate choice and doing so in any bad way – hatred, discord, jealousy, fits of rage, selfishness, dissensions, envy, gossip, drunkenness, and the like – is just absolutely NOT okay and does not in any way make you a good person. Like at all!

Don’t be that guy / girl!!! 


The Power of I’m Sorry

ThePowerOfImSorryI’m Sorry.

No but’s… no and’s… no however’s… no additions of any kind.  When you just get to a point that it doesn’t matter if you don’t win your part of the fight, and the relationship is finally more important than the issue, you will then realize that your pride and principal point are not as important as you thought they were.  Especially if you are in the wrong and these words are quite needed to be said, yet even if you are right about your stance and you feel the other person should be apologizing … it is more than okay to just simply say “I’m Sorry” for any part you played in this scenario.

The power of I’m Sorry is great.  The power of staying silent after saying I’m sorry and not adding any point to be made after is even greater.  To prove to the other person that you truly genuinely are sorry for your part, is worth pushing aside your pride.  What power does it have you ask? I’m glad you asked… because the power it has is great!  It has the power to break barriers that have been built up in the argument.  It has the power to soften hearts that have been hardened with pride and anger.  It has the power to heal relationships.  It has the power to bring people back together.

This is a simple and short post to share this seed of wisdom that I have finally matured enough to speak this with full confidence to you, in the power of I’m sorry.

Drop your swords.  Drop your pride.  Simply say I’m Sorry, and mean it.  (Even if you are apologizing for just one word you said wrong, and you think the other person is more in the wrong… find something you ARE genuinely sorry about, so that your apology is pure and honest. Sincerity here is key.)


I love you all.

Sonya… She Idealist.


Be like the turtle.

Behold The Turtle - James Bryant Conant

James Bryant Conant was fond of saying: “Behold the turtle. It makes progress only when it sticks its neck out.”  If you research Conant (1893 – 1978) you will discover that he was an American chemist, a very transformative President of Harvard University (who almost got dismissed of that title due to his forward thinking & actions), and the first U.S. Ambassador to West Germany. It is fitting that this quote was made by a man who continuously and consistently pushed the envelope for his time.

I was talking with one of my personal friends and life mentors today, who reminded me that I need to still be like the turtle in every area of my life.  Whether you are thinking about business or personal life, it is good advice to remember the turtle.  How far do you think you will get if you stay safe and secure in all of your actions?  If staying where you are right now is your goal, then by all means, stay.  However if getting ahead is your goal, then make this quote personal to your life: “You only make progress when you stick your neck out.”

The turtle is safe when he is in his shell.  You are safe in your comfort zone.  However if the turtle (or you) would like to reach another destination, he has to stick his head and neck out of his shell.  Even though his head no longer has the protection of his hard shell in this stance, it is the only way he can move forward.  He could get hurt this way.  His head is soft and sensitive to harm in this position.  Sound familiar??

Relationally, how many times have you felt the initial surge of fear? That nagging doubt that the person you are thinking about might not like you as much? They might disappoint you, hurt you, leave you, or many other negative feelings your mind can conjure up? The mind wants to protect the heart.  The heart just wants to love and be loved.  Allowing yourself to be vulnerable is a very brave thing!  There are “what if” scenarios that is might not work and that it might work.  Is it worth being brave IF it just might be IT??  Even if it doesn’t work out… guess what? You WILL be alright.  You are here right now, reading this right now, which means however many times you’ve loved and lost in your life, you made it through.  You will make it through.  I say, be brave.

Professionally, this quote repeated on a daily basis is a great idea to push yourself on to the next level.  Stepping out of your comfort zone and into the areas that make you nervous is both frightening and exciting.  When Babe Ruth retired in 1935, his 1330 career strikeouts was an MLB record.  However he is known for establishing the MLB record career home runs and is now a legend!  Babe Ruth talk didn’t fear being mocked for striking out more than anyone else.  He just kept swinging!  Babe Ruth has some pretty great quotes to go along with this topic as well: “Never let the fear of striking out get in your way.” “Every strike brings me closer to the next home run.” “It’s hard to beat a person who never gives up.” “I swing with everything I’ve got. I hit big or I miss big.  I like to live as big as I can.”  Just like the turtle, Babe Ruth put himself outside of a comfort zone and made greatness for himself! In spite of everything.  If you keep getting up, keep fighting, keep moving, no matter how many times you get knocked down you WILL make the finish line!

Even if you do not aspire to be a legend in the public’s eye, this lesson to be like the turtle still applies to any amount of progress in your life.  So do it, I know you can.  Stick your neck out of your shell.  Make the move forward.  Make that ask for something you want.  Make the call.  Send the email.  Write the letter (I know, old fashioned huh?!). I’ve lost literally every  personal belonging & relationship simultaneously in my life before, and yes it sucks and hurts and takes some getting back up.  But I GOT BACK UP and am even farther ahead now that I was then.  I am still here, my children are still here, my life is still happy, I am still smiling, I am still moving forward.  So once again I am reminding you, as well as myself, to look at yourself in the mirror.  Tell yourself that YOU are worth it.  Put your shoulders back, stand up straight, take a deep breath in, and exhale then smile!  Now, stick your neck out for progress for yourself!


Coming out of my shell & sticking my neck out along with you,

Sonya… She Idealist

I’m only human…

I’m only human…

There is a new song out by Christina Perri called Human.  Her lyrics and video are perfection.  If you are anything like me… the one who’s always supposed to be strong, the one who’s always looked to, the one who put so much pressure on themselves… then you understand the idea that we feel the need to be almost more than human.  Every once in a while someone comes around and we allow them to see beyond our tough exterior into our broken and tattered interior selves.  How nearly unbearable is that moment, the secret insecurity we hold that they will no longer look up to us or think of us as grand if they see how weak we truly feel most of the time.  We are just better of not showing that to the world.

Sadly those so close to us can also put too many expectations upon us, as we build up our “more than human” persona every day to everyone including them.  And even though those few people know exactly how strong and weak equally we really are, they have come to expect our resilience and tenacity at somehow always getting back up no matter how many times we are knocked down.  When THOSE people are the ones who knock us down however… wow, that fall seems SO much harder! It’s as if they that know our shattered interiors, are able to throw them all around with just a flick of their wrists when they are mad at us.  We defintely finally feel human when we realize how tender even our hearts are.  Yes, I know, it’s a tough blow when we have to admit that we are “only human” just like everyone else.

I pray that everyone around us realizes that we are all only human.  We bleed and hurt just like everyone else.  Just like you.  Even though we seem so strong compared to the majority, we have fragile parts and hearts just like the majority.  We are great at being more mechanical in order to be anything we need to be.  Yet, even we have moments when we simply want to scream out at you, “I’m only human!”

“Human” – Christina Perri (lyrics)

I can hold my breath I can bite my tongue I can stay awake for days If that’s what you want Be your number one
I can fake a smile I can force a laugh I can dance and play the part If that’s what you ask Give you all I am
I can do it I can do it I can do it
But I’m only human And I bleed when I fall down I’m only human And I crash and I break down Your words in my head, knives in my heart You build me up and then I fall apart ‘Cause I’m only human
I can turn it on Be a good machine I can hold the weight of worlds If that’s what you need Be your everything
I can do it I can do it I’ll get through it
But I’m only human And I bleed when I fall down I’m only human And I crash and I break down Your words in my head, knives in my heart You build me up and then I fall apart ‘Cause I’m only human
I’m only human I’m only human Just a little human
I can take so much ‘Til I’ve had enough
Cause I’m only human And I bleed when I fall down I’m only human And I crash and I break down Your words in my head, knives in my heart You build me up and then I fall apart ‘Cause I’m only human

Until next time, I will continue being a transparent girl in this world in hopes of making you realize it really is okay to be human.
Sonya… She Idealist.

Feminists will hate me – Part 2 is a site that I normally enjoy seeing posts from popping up on my Facebook news feed. However today I saw a post titled, “Watch The Disney Princesses Realize All The Cool Things They Gave Up In The Name Of ‘True Love'” by writer, Rebecca Eisenberg (, who is a self-described “feminist…hoping to make the world a better place.”

She posts a YouTube video (shown below) with this write-up intro:

“If you’ve seen “Frozen,” then you know Queen Elsa has no patience for the notion of “love at first sight.” First, she wouldn’t let her Princess Anna marry a man she had just met — who (spoiler alert!) turned out to be evil — and now she’s retroactively bringing the same wisdom to the rest of the Disney princesses.  I don’t know about you, but I’ll be singing this for weeks.”

Reading, then watching this, made me overly irritated and then purely disgusted.  I agree in the basic concepts of feminism as it is written in the dictionary which reads, “feminism: the belief that men and women should have equal rights and opportunities.” ( However, what part of “equal rights” is a woman saying that she doesn’t need a man, and how does this statement mean that you are all of a sudden a better woman by not needing men.  When did equality mean not needing each other or that by having a man-woman relationship you are somehow not a great woman?

I am highly confused, frustrated, bothered and disgusted by this frame of mind women are attempting to push down girls’ throats.  Why is having another woman around 100% better than having a man around?  Why is having a man around somehow making you less a woman or unable to achieve things in life?  Why are you not able to be an empowered strong life-living woman because you fall in love or become in a relationship or married or even, gasp, have children?

How dare you, a society filled with egotistical insecure women, push on other women and young girls the mentality that they are better alone! How dare you find every way imaginable to tear apart the core that is a family and try to make it sound cooler to be single than a team! Don’t you know that MORE can be accomplished in life with a partner?! Don’t you know that men and women both have their strengths and weakness different from each other just in the fact that they are born male or female? Why not push the fact that we can work together – whether it be by friendship, by partnership, by love and marriage, or whatever pairing you would like to call it – and actually teach empowerment of teamwork?! If you really want equality, that comes with the Yin & the Yang, aka the man & the woman, becoming one complete unit and in doing so pulling from each others’ unique birthed strengths to do more in life than we can alone.

Why not teach men and women how to respect each other and treat each other as equals.  Not this stupid method of saying equality is somehow the same as saying “I don’t need you, and even more I am better without you!” I pray that my daughter doesn’t soak up the junk you are attempting to feed into this world.

This is NOT the way you make the world a better place Ms. Eisenberg.  This is not the type of story you should be publishing UpWorthy.  Please, feel free to contact me if you should have any questions as to what really would make this world a better place.

Disgusted… She Idealist.

People come & go in our lives.

People come & go in our lives.  Sometimes it is a hard thing to deal with.  Some people you want to keep forever, somehow, at some level.  Learning to let them go completely is hard.  However I have heard that missing people is part of the healing process.  I am thankful for all (well okay, most) of the people who have come into my life.  Some I miss dearly, some I think about often, some I wish I could just call up like I used to and tell about random simple daily happenings.

People may leave your life through death.  People may leave your life through moving far away.  People may leave your life through ‘growing apart’ or moving into different stages of their life.  People may leave your life through a break-up… good or bad.

I am a firm believer that God brings people into your life for a purpose.  Those purposes may not always be pleasant.  In fact, sometimes there is a lesson you need to learn or a hardship you need to endure, in order to “prune” you and your character into who He has for you to become.

I'm glad I met you

I’m glad I met you

I am learning to allow people to move in and out of my life.  It is a hard lesson.  When a best friend is no longer a best friend.  When a man/woman you thought could be “it” does not end up being it in the end.  When a time-frame ends with someone who you never though it would end with… and you wonder “why?” or “how?” it ended.

I do not have all of the answers.  What I do have is life experiences and a learning willing spirit.  Sometimes it is best to have faith in what will be and allow people to live out their own free will to come and go from your life… just as you have come & gone through other people’s lives.

Try and focus on making every day with every person in your life right now, the best moments you can make with them… be the best blessing you can be into their lives.  Whether or not they reciprocate.  Be these things: “But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, self-control; against such things there is no law.”  Galatians 5:22-23

With a hopeful heart hanging onto every moment with those in my life,

Sonya… She Idealist

Why do I live my life publicly?

Why do I live my life publicly?

Ever since I can remember, as early as being a school aged kid, I can remember sitting in my classrooms and hearing others talking amongst themselves with questions of things they didn’t understand or didn’t know the answers to or didn’t agree with, but were too embarrassed or scared to say out loud. I would immediately raise my hand and voice the question or concern, as if it was my own, just to help them. Because I have never been afraid of speaking up. I have never been afraid of looking foolish publicly. Or of people talking about me.

I was just born with a much thicker layer of skin than most people I suppose when it comes to this arena. And with this realization, I have always felt it my purpose or calling if you will to speak out for those who cannot. Because I can.

This blog, my FB page, my life…. are all platforms I have to help others. What I have is my voice and an audience bigger than most peoples. So why would I not do what I am able to do?!

For the 3 people who have questioned or disagreed with this part of me before, there are multitudes for each of those 3 who send me messages thanking me for what I do. Letting me know it helps so much. Asking me to please continue.

If I am going through something, have a thought about something, witness something noteworthy in life….. then someone else somewhere else has as well. And someone is feeling alone in their emotions and struggles and life happenings. If my vulnerable transparency helps them, then I have done what I was meant to do. Help others with the gifts and talents given me.

I will not apologize for this part of my life. It has been here since I was a young girl. It will remain as long as I have a platform and a voice to make a difference in people’s lives.

Transparently yours,

Sonya… She Idealist



I wrote this blog and wee hours of the morning after late phone call and being questioned about this part of my life. I then put down my iPhone until today so that I would have time to spellcheck before publishing. Then… My phone rang at 8 o’clock this morning by a girl many miles away that I haven’t spoken to in years, because she saw my most recent emotionally transparent FB post. Thanking me for posting. Going through something that was in need of the exact words. We talked for over an hour and I am so thankful for her and her heart.

It was wonderful to receive confirmation within hours of being questioned for this part of my life!

Sonya… She Idealist.

You are never promised another minute!

I am thankful and grateful that my mother ingrained into me the thought process to never leave someone, no matter how mad, without letting them know how I truly feel for them.  I try my hardest to let my friends, family and loved ones always realize what they mean to me.  I do not always do perfectly, however I hope that I successfully drill this point home with those close to my heart.

I have been recently reminded, very tragically, that you are never promised another minute with anyone!  You never know what will happen.  You never know when or if something might happen and take that person away from you!  The best way to appreciate someone is to imagine your life without them!

How horrible would you feel if your last words were not nice words.  If you rushed out the door in your normal hustle and bustle and didn’t take the extra 2 minutes to hug and kiss and hold them, even briefly.  And please… if this has held true for you, please please do not hold yourself accountable.  Please do not put yourself under the major emotional stress of claiming any guilt or wrong-doing.  We are humans and all make mistakes.  You were truly just living normal life.

We all need to do better at this! Take this moment, literally STOP right now, and call that person you fought with last.  Look at them, if they are with you, and soften your heart just enough.  Let them know that no matter what, even if you are still mad, that you do care about them.  Don’t let them out of your sight without dropping your pride and your guards enough to always let them know.  Because… “what if” those are the last words you get to say to them??  What if that was your last moment to touch them??

I pray dearly to God that we can all hear and learn these words!  I pray that we all learn to practice this and not let our pride overtake us and then risk potentially regretting it later.  I pray for myself to continue to do this better and more, and I pray for you to pick up this habit and hold to it tightly.

My heart breaks for my friends going through tragedy right now, and for my friends who have gone through tragedy in the past.  I praise and thank God that I still have so many in my life that I love, even if I cannot be with them everyday.  I am thankful that I have a voice to speak publicly via this blog, and I pray that is helps someone today… to cling to those you love every moment you have them.  To not take those you care about for granted.

I appreciate you all.  I value you following along as I write, a bit too transparently sometimes, from my heart.  Thank you.  I pray that you have an amazing day!  

You're Never Promised Another Minute!

You’re Never Promised Another Minute!

Putting my own words into practice….

Sonya… She Idealist

What other’s think and say…

Why do we as a people care so much about what other’s think and say about us, or don’t say?  Why do we put so much weight on their words and actions towards us?  Are we that insecure and unsure of ourselves?

I like to think that I am a fairly confident and strong person.  However, even I find myself doing this exact thing.  Even yesterday and today I found myself reaching out to someone, and then I was sitting on nervous insecure pins & needles wishing for a positive reply.  I mean REALLY!?  Is it really that bad if someone doesn’t like me?  Is it really that bad if someone doesn’t feel like replying to me?  Is my world really going to end if I get my feelings hurt or heart broken?

The answer that you or I do not want to hear is… NO!  This world keeps turning.  Your life keeps on going.  “This too shall pass.”

My mom used to tell us children all the time, “when things are going bad, just hold on because ‘this too shall pass;’ when things are going good, cherish it because ‘this too shall pass.'”  It was a good life lesson and one that also means that no matter what, this world keeps turning.  Change is hard, but can also be exciting.

We should try to practice and learn that others think and say about or to us, or choose not to say to us, really is not quite as important as our hearts think it is.  Today, I have had to practice the old “out of sight, out of mind” approach.  Some people are better at this than others.  I am a slightly impatient person and seem to want answers faster than they are really absolutely NEEDED.  I need to slow down, take a deep breath, and just allow myself to be vulnerable.  If I have reached out to someone, it is their prerogative if they reply or how they reply to me.  I have to allow whatever will be to be.  I have done my part, and I then need to let go of it.

You are still who you are.  Anything they could say or do does not change who you are!  Just be okay with who and where you are.  If they don’t reply or don’t reply the way you hoped.  Just take a calming breath, and move on.  It is really okay.  You are really okay.

I love you and am giving you a big cyber hug right now.

If Today Was Your Last Day

If today was your last day…

If today was the last day of your life, what would you do? Who would you cling to? What would be important? What would not be important?

Sometimes when you put things into proper perspective, all those “issues” and feeling like you need to prove your point, your rightness, yourself… they no longer matter. Drop your boxing gloves, your swords, take all the blame (even if it’s not yours) and turn the other cheek. Is it really worth risking losing every part of it, losing the friendship, losing the relationship, losing the happiness of it.

Sometimes the things you have even crying over or complaining about are not as big of deals as your heart has been breaking over and your mind has been telling you. Your life is not over. The world keeps turning and you can and should refocus your mind onto things that matter more. Put your time and energy into better things.

Sometimes the things you have almost given up on are still options. I know the fight has made you weary and it seems like it’s never going to happen. However, what if you truly gave it ALL again… what could happen. If you did give your all and it did not happen, you would still be here. Life would still be here. Yes it would hurt and it is scary. Is it worth it? Is it so important that it is worth the risk? If so, put away your fear! Put away all of the what ifs. Stop sabotaging steps of your success because you’re actually just afraid of a possible negative outcome!!! Just do it! Try!!! Make the move you’ve been scared to make!

Sometimes we see someone going through something caused by their own actions. Or about to make a really bad choice. You’ve been biting your tongue out of respect or the possibilities of them getting mad at or hurt by you. Do you truly care for them? Is their life happiness worth stepping up and speaking the wisdom they truly need to hear? Is their success and safety and happiness important enough to lay yourself on the line and do the right thing?

Today… take the blame even if it’s not yours. But be genuine in your desire to simply do whatever it takes to stop the fight. Ask for forgiveness for your side. Be honest. Be humble. Life is too short to allow friendships and other relationships to crumble over pride on either side.

Today… Decide to pick yourself up out of your pity party. Find a person even if it’s an audio book person, to help motivate you and uplift your attitude and determination. Choose a course towards a new goal that you’ve been wanting to accomplish and focus your time and energy into this. Every time a negative thought or moment steps in, use it to launch you deeper into an action step towards this goal. Refocus your mind on this.

Today… Take 10 minutes to truly think on the things you are about to give up on. Are they hard things that you truly want and need to focus on and fix? Or are they dead ends that you need to walk away from? If the latter, find a friend who will hold you accountable to staying away. If it is important and deep down you desire that, then stop lolly gagging and get off your tush and fight for it again! Find a friend who can help you when you get beat down or tired. Every boxer needs a person in their corner. Look around you, there is always someone. There is always something. Go to God’s word about this. Pray about it. Put your boxing gloves back on… you are not down for the count otherwise you wouldn’t be able to read this! You are still in the fight!! With enough energy, enough fight, you can do it!!! You can win this. Do it! Be brave enough to lose a fight, while still fighting to win the battle!

Today… Make the person you care about more important than yourself. If you truly love them, if their success and happiness is worth more than your possible hurt feelings, make the decision to step up and be the true friend you say you are. Say the hard words. Help them!

Life is too short!!!!!! Life is too short to have to be right. Life is too short to spend it sad & depressed. Life is too short not to fight for those things you truly want in your life. Life is too short to not help others for the fear of making them upset. Life is too short!!!!

If today was your last day what would you do?

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